Falling to pieces but no one notices.

Hello guys(: So, as you can see, I finally recreated a blog (okay, I have another private blog which I update really often but nope, I'm not telling anyone the link so lets just take it like I have only one blog☺ ) and I'm gonna start blogging again though I don't think anyone's gonna read (but you never know HAHA). It's actually the CT period so its a really bad time to blog since I'm supposed to be studying and revising, not blogging but I think I'm gonna take a break from all the mugging and stuff like that.

Had 3 papers yesterday, and it's a wonder how I'm not brain dead yet. LA was kinda hard, chinese was.... well just chinese and E.Lit was the worst of all. Doing E.Lit Common Test is as bad as writing 3 essays and my hands nearly died. Not to forget, the place where I sit is so damn hot, I was sweating like crazy and felt so giddy and nauseous half the time, that I was practically lying on the table and writing. Just praying that I'll do okay since I really tried my best.

I know it's wrong of me to feel like I'm taking the wrong subject combination since I was the one who chose it but it feels like there's just so much work for me to do and I'm feeling so sick and tired of doing all of it. Like the really long school hours and heavy content subjects. Maybe I should have taken 7 subjects instead cos I think I would have been able to manage better. There's just so much stuff to do yet so little time. Ever since school started, there has been a never ending number of projects and assignments for us to complete. Time and again, my parents will ask me if I'm coping okay in school and I'll say yes, but I'm lying to them cos I don't want them to worry about me since they already have so much stuff to handle on their own, like my mum, who still has to teach my bro who's having his PSLE this year. I'm completely stressing out for CTs though I know I don't show it cos I try to show it off like I don't really bother when I really do... Anyway, enough with the rants haha. ALL THE BEST for the remaining papers in CT1 guys☺ 4 papers down for me, and 4 more to go!

I keep telling myself that everything is gonna be okay and that I'll be able to stay strong and cope well, but day by day, I'm losing grip.