Tuesday, January 20, 2015

Reminiscence

Somedays, I miss you more than the others.
They say that you miss the memories more than the people themselves, and I could never really agree to this statement, yet could never put into words what I really felt against that statement. Now however, I realise; you couldn't miss the memories if you don't miss the people that created those memories with you. You miss the people and then you reminisce, and you start to miss the memories too. But really, you miss the people the most.
Reminiscent;
"And I felt comfort.
He took the mess that was Macbeth and fixed it, and I had to wonder if he might in some small way, be able to do the same for me. So I moved myself closer to him, and I'd been there ever since."
Even when I'm sober, I must admit, just because you're clean don't mean you don't miss it.

Sunday, January 4, 2015

2015- 51 Things On My New Year's Resolution List

1) Grab a few good books (aka book shopping!!!)
2) Get a hair cut (I have been pretty damn lazy to get one hahaha)
3) 放天灯with Joy!!!☺❤
4) Have a movie marathon (!!!)
5) Get contact lens
6) Go café hopping!!!☺☺
7) Get rid of bad habits
8) GET FIT (run regularly HAHAHA)
9) Buy more new clothes!!! (They are never enough idk hahaha fml)
10) Buy more new shoes!!!
11) Go pinicking☺☺
12) Have a sleepover at someone's house (!!!)
13) BAKING☺☺☺
14) Ramen and sushi with Felicia omggg HAHAHA☺❤
15) Keep in contact with chem tuition friends and meet up with them occasionally☺
16) No more binging on food (aka eat healthier!!!)
17) Stop procastinating and start being more focused, and more on task (!!!)
18) Give myself some quality time a few times in a week, and do some self reflection☺
19) Go to the movies alone
20) Be a happier person (You have the ability and choice to make yourself happy - you choose your own happiness)
21) Be more positive and be a less negative person!!!
22) To find love and to be loved (I mean this in so many ways) ☺
23) To be contented with what I have in life, and learn to appreciate & cherish the people around me more (You never know what's gonna happen in the next minute)
24) To be a stronger and more resilient individual
25) To be more independent
26) To be more outgoing as a person - learn to talk to strangers and make friends, and stop being so socially awkward
27) Step out of my comfort zone occasionally
28) Take roller coaster rides and try not to puke HAHAHA
29) Face my fears and watch a horror movie (MAYBE)
30) Stop being so afraid of getting hurt and the idea of attachment, and detaching myself from someone, ruining that relationship I have with the person everytime I start to get a little deeper and closer to the person
31) Be a cleaner and tidier person
32) Stop being so lazy
33) Be more tolerant and patient
34) Be a better friend, a better person and THE better person
35) Save up more money (!!!!!!)
36) Get a pair of sunglasses LOL IDK HAHAHA
37) ✨HAVE A BLAST ON MY 17TH BIRTHDAY YAS✨
38) Be brave and be courageous
39) Try to live with no regrets
40) Blog more often
41) Listen and observe more in conversations
42) Buy a polaroid instax printer!!!
43) Sign up for cooking classes☺
44) Spend more quality time with my family (!!!) ☺
45) Try to lessen/minimise the amount of time spent on my phone
46) Keep faith in what I think is right personally, and not be wavered by peer pressure
47) Learn that it's okay to make mistakes, and learn from the mistakes made
48) Find work in the holidays and earn more money, and not give up so easily LOL
49) Know my self-worth and what I deserve, and not take anything less than that (You are the love you think you deserve)
50) Be a more accepting person and accept people's flaws along with their good sides, but at the same time, take no bullshit from others and learn to stand up for myself (!!!)
51) Live 2015 to the fullest (and the years to come) and complete my 2015 New Year's Resolution!!!☺☺❤

Tuesday, December 30, 2014

2014- Reflection Post

2 days before the end of 2014 and I just wanna do a quick reflect on the past 1 year given that I haven't been blogging much this year and I'm gonna be pretty raw and honest on an open blog for the very first time.

2014 hasn't been the best year but it definitely hasn't been the worst. So so so many things has happened in the past 1 year. Getting transferred to 4A which is one of the main things that happened to me this year has taught me a lot of things and I feel like I've grown alot as a person this year. Going through the whole O's period was stressful and pretty tough but I've never worked harder than I did this year and it's also because of O's that I got to realise just how blessed and loved I am by the people around me, and just how lucky I am to have made so many good and wonderful friends in the past 4 years. O's has taught me that working hard matters and that it is important to have a goal in mind without any distractions, and that it is important to focus.

In the past 4 years, I've met someone who has given me strength in more ways than he could ever imagine and who has taught me to become a better person, to always be myself and not be someone I am not and to always be the better person. He has always been there for me at my lowest and is always there to pick me up and to make me feel better, giving me comfort in so so many ways, and I have never felt comfort like this. I am who I am today mainly because of what he has taught me to be. He made me really happy and still does. The memories that we've created together will always be somewhere deep in my heart. Though he may somewhat no longer be a part of my life, and though we never really got to have the closure I feel like we desperately need, and that I am still/will always be searching for, in some ways, he will always remain really important to me.

If you ever read this, I just want you to know that I am really grateful for everything that we had and were, that we have and are, and thank you. Thank you for always ALWAYS being around, and thank you for accepting all of me- my flaws and everything else. Thank you for showing me parts of you that you don't show others, and thank you for letting me do the same for you. Thank you for always trying to make me happy. Thank you for the amount of comfort we feel when we're together. Though there's a tinge of awkwardness now, it's still comforting to know that when we're around each other and when we talk, it's still somewhat like how it was and how it's always been. And it's comforting to know that that's probably one of the things that will never change between the two of us. I also just wanted to say that I am sorry for all the times I upset you, and for all the times I didn't have the courage to apologise for the things that I said and didn't mean. I've never let myself be this attached to someone till you came into my life, and maybe it's because of you that I'm scared to be this attached to someone again. And maybe there are some things between the two of us that could have gone differently, but I wouldn't change anything for the world, ever. There's so much that I would tell you, but words will never be enough for me to let you know just how grateful I am to have met you, and for everything that you've given me.


"It was like the life we'd lived before was in some alternate timeline. There was something missing in both of us and when we first met there, we found it in each other. But now, after, everything was different. We'd slipped out of that timeline, and that life was lost to us now. We weren't even a foot apart, but it felt like a thousand miles. Nevertheless, no matter what happened next, no one else would or could do what you had done for me, and what you do for me even now."

Maybe somewhere along the way, we'll find that closure. I hope we do. X.

In the past 4 years, I've learnt that it's okay to have people leaving your life because that's what life is about- people come and people go, and that's okay because the memories that they've given you and the things they've taught you and that you've learnt from them are the things that will stick with you for life. And the people that you remember them as, will remain in your heart forever. So it's okay to let go, and let live. Life goes on, and we move right along with it.

2014 is the year where I got to know alot more people be it in or out of school. 6 months ago, I joined this tuition centre rather reluctantly, just for the sake of pulling my chem grades up. 4 months ago, this asshole barged into my life and caused quite the chaos but it's because of him that tuition started being way more enriching and our class started becoming more interactive, and that's when my chem started improving significantly. And despite being an asshole most of the time, and even though sometimes I wonder why I am still friends with him cos I have never called anyone asshole more times than I have with him, he's a pretty nice and good friend too I guess. I'm rather grateful for his unexpected appearance in my life and he's taught me quite alot in the past 4 months we've known each other, though he is still a pain in the ass hmph. The tuition centre has also become a rather significant part of my life since then as well, and it's funny cos I never thought this was gonna happen. But I guess as they always say, the great or best things in life always happen at the most unexpected times huh? Cos this was or is one of the best things that has happened to me this year.

To all my really amazing friends that I made in my first 3 years in DHS, thank you for making me feel so loved and blessed, and for overwhelming me with it though it made me tear up and cry cos of how touched I was. When I started this year, I honestly thought that we wouldn't be close anymore cos I was changing streams and I thought I would be losing you guys as my friends but as everyone keeps telling me and as I know myself, I am really lucky cos not only did we not drift apart, but I feel that we've only gotten closer. Thank you for being such positive influences, for being such supportive and encouraging friends, for sticking by me all the time, and thank you for being the people I can always confide in. They say that you're lucky if you have just one great friend in this world; well then I must be more than just lucky because I don't have just one but 11 great or BEST friends in this world. I would name you guys but I'm sure you guys know who you are cos I hope that I've been constantly reminding you guys enough just how great a friend you guys have been to me. No matter what happens, be it whether I go back to DHS or even if I leave, I hope that we'll always remain as good friends and despite the distance, we will always make the effort to remain close cos that's what counts right? I love you guys all so much.

To the 2 of you that I only became close to this year, thank you for sticking by me this whole year cos without you guys, I wouldn't have made it through this year. Though you guys can be a little or really crazy sometimes, and though you guys aren't that expressive friends, the amount of care you've shown me in the past short one year has been pretty overwhelming and I am really grateful. This year wouldn't have been the same without you guys.

2014, you have taught me to be resilient, you have taught me to be strong, that I can be stronger than I think I can be. You have taught me that it's okay to let go and to move on cos that doesn't mean that we'll be forgetting about the things that we had, but simply putting and keeping them in a place in our hearts where it'll forever be remembered, and moving on for more things to come. You taught me the importance of being alone sometimes, and giving myself some alone time cos it's important to do some self reflection from time to time. 2014, you have made me realised how blessed and lucky and how LOVED I am. You may not have been the easiest year nor the best, but you're definitely the year that has given me alot to learn, and the year where I learnt alot about myself so thank you.

This is to 2014 which has been one hell of a ride, and here's to a greater and better 2015, and for the many years ahead to come. X.

Friday, January 24, 2014

It's suicide when I'm not with you.

Hey guys! (: I haven't blogged in about a week, so I decided to do a really quick blog update today haha.

Last week was pretty hectic I suppose cos I had cca on Thursday and Saturday, but I ended off the school week pretty well (: I was having free period on Friday and it happened to be the last 2 periods of the day, and I heard that Jolyn and Crystal (who are immigrating to New Zealand and Australia respectively) are coming back to school to visit us before leaving so I told Joy, Jasmine and Kelly to tell me when they are back so that I can join them haha. They were having LA at that time with Mr Lam and since I was his LA Rep last year, he was more than happy to have me back hahaha (quote from Mr Lam to me that day, "You did a very good job last year. Thank you very much for your service, I really appreciate it." :D) And I was honestly touched that day haha :') Then when they arrived, I awkwardly left my class while they were having history and went to look for Joy who was waiting for me at the lift lobby to fetch me back to 4D (hahaha) and it was really funny cos it was super awkward and we just started to laugh while walking/running to 4D and we just ran into the class through the back door. And when I sat down beside Joy and Jasmine, Mr Lam welcomed me back to the class along with 4D and I was actually really happy cos it's like a short 3D reunion without Justin (who was having history in 4A), and I had a really good time with Jasmine and Joy cos they reminded me of how things was like last year when we sat next to each other (: After school ended, I started to talk to Joy alot and we were being really high so Joy suggested that we take pictures together so she got Yan Lin to help us take and we ended up taking 9pics but NONE OF THEM was glam cos we were laughing like crazy. We even took pictures of us girl hugging each other and that was awkward but super funny at the same time hahahahaha. You should see our faces from the photos cos it was really unglam but I shan't post them here cos Joy does not want other people to see us "gaying" around in class hahahahahahahahaha. But basically, I had a really good day that day though I had dental appointment after school that day which resulted in me only having lunch at 5+ haha (: Ps. Here's a pic of me, Joy, Yan Lin, Jolyn and Crystal taken on that day by Megan, and it's for keepsake since they're leaving us for a really long time ): They'll be missed. ♡



This week's been pretty good! I can't really remember much for Monday cos that day just flew by really quickly, but I do remember having 2 hours of math (which wasn't exactly that bad) and going home with Angel afterwards(:

Tuesday was pretty good and I think I was actually acting a little high that day cos PE was rather good that day! I survived running 3 rounds (it might not be alot to some of you but it is for me haha) and we played badminton which was pretty fun cos it's one of the sports that I'm better at haha(: Then after school (which ended at 4.45pm) I went to meet up with the Kellies and Huiyuen and Jingying (POTATO :D who called me when school ended to ask me if I'm going home) and we went to meet with this Jed person who has been delaying our CIP project and he didn't reply the email I sent LAST YEAR, so we're going there to scold him. And while walking to St.Hilda's link, we started to say jokes about the Jed guy (whose real name is really Ming Wei and we like to call him gay, just because. Hahaha). Then while we were discussing/scolding the Jed guy (idk it sounds weird calling him Jed only), potato waited for us outside at the fountain in front of 7/11. After our discussion ended, we went to look for potato and we went home together, except for Huiyuen who took the bus. I had a pretty good time with the 4 of them(:

Wednesday felt like a really long day cos I ended at 3.45 but I waited for Kelly Gan to go home together and she ends at 4.15! When I went to look for her, she was still doing some stuff so I went to talk to Joy who never fails to make me laugh cos she's that funny and I always have a really good time with her even if it's for a really short period of time (: (my bff from 3D/ one of my bff in life yay hahaha and can I just say how grateful I am to have gotten to know her haha(: ). When Kelly Gan was finally done, we went home together and I had a really good time with her as well (: So it was a long but pretty good day in general haha (:

Today has been really good! I went down to flagraising with Kelly Gan and halfway to the parade square, someone poked me really hard in the sides and I turned around to see Zhau Yue only to realise that it was Nat that poked me hahaha (and this reminds me that I haven't hung out with them in some time so I  need to hang out with them soon!!!). After flagraising, I had chem in the morning which consisted of Ng Shi Shi using her really loud voice to talk in class cos the whole class is combined and we were being rather noisy. Then we had maths, and maths is so much more bearable now that I have no longer have LSH as my teacher and I'm able to understand like x1000000000000000 times better now with Mr Yeo (: Then we had recess and I went down with Felicia, before coming back to chinese for the book quiz. That was pretty easy cos the MCQ was open book, but the structured qns was a little hard cos I didn't read the book :P (I only read the chapter which I used to do my hols hw for, and when I attempted to read the book, I closed it on the very first word. Oops) but I think I'll pass this quiz (: After chinese was free period cos the rest takes history and I went with Adrianne as per usual and we started to discuss some stuff for our individual radio commercial project. Then afterwards we had English with Mr Sng who was being super funny as per usual and it was a really good english lesson haha (: After school, I met up with Angel and Shi Kai to have lunch together before going home with Angel only cos Shi Kai has choir sectionals. I had a really really good time with them cos I haven't had lunch together with them (where 3 of us are together) for a really long time and we managed to do a major catch up and I had a lot of fun with them cos they always make me laugh like crazy when I'm with them (: So I must say that today's been a really good day! (:

Oh oh and did I mention (I don't think I need to but) the weather recently has been really cold it's like Singapore's rendition of winter LOL.

Anyway, time to end off my blog post so till then! xx. (:







To you,
Thank you so much for everything you've ever done for me. I don't think I've ever told you how grateful I am to have you in my life but I really am. Here's to us and the many many more months to come♡.
xx.

Wednesday, January 15, 2014

You light the spark in my bonfire heart.

Hey guys(: Wow, I just realised that it's been more than 2 months since I last blogged and I feel so computer/blog deprived LOL. The last time I blogged was year 2013, and I cannot believe that it's 2014 already like wait, hold up, say whaaaat? 2013 flew by soo quickly, I can still remember the first day I started year 3. No actually, I can still remember the first day I started year 1 and the speed at which the years are flying by is just really starting to scare me cos before you know it, 2014 will be over.


Honestly, looking back at 2013, I guess I can say that it hasn't been the best year. I mean sure, times have been rougher (like my primary school days which is a whole different story) but 2013 was still a pretty rough year nevertheless. 2013 has been one hell of a ride, from going to a complete girl class with 1 boy, to not doing well at all in my studies, to having to face a lot of other personal/family issues, and then getting the expected yet hope crushing news that I'm gonna have to leave my current class to another class, which hasn't exactly been the easiest thing to deal with and which I will talk about below. But despite 2013 being a rough year, there's been it's pretty good moments too like 2INNAE CLASS CHALET :DD which is hands down one of the best 3 days of the year and which I will also talk about below, as well as getting to spend Christmas eve with 1/4 of the Innae family and Mr&Mrs Chan :) , and many other good moments that I shan't mention haha. Anyway, time to move on to the next segment of my post haha

You know, it's not a good feeling when you have your hopes raised really high, only to have everything come crashing back down on you later. And unfortunately, this has happened to me quite or more than a few times to me in life. The most recent being in Nov 2013. For those of you who don't already know, I've changed classes and I'm currently in 4A... And before it was confirmed that I had to change class, I honestly didn't wanna even think about it cos to me that was a freaking nightmare. On the last day of school, I was a complete emotional mess and Kelly, Nat, Joy and some others (sorry I can't remember cos that day was really a whirlwind) had to keep talking to me to make me feel that bit better, and it helped (kinda) but I still cried, a lot, simply cos I was really scared of the fact that I might be changing classes and I was going to a whole new environment where I do not have a single close friend there since every single person in the class already has their own clique. Then came the day I had to speak to the teachers and then reality hit me after the entire "discussion" (trust me when I say it wasn't even a discussion. It was more like "persuade liqi to go to 4A" kind of "discussion") that I'm not gonna be staying in 3D/4D. The hopes and expectations that I had raised so high just came crashing down on me afterwards and reality really hurts. Then on the very same day, I had to go face half of my new classmates at some supp classes that they held for us and I don't know how, but I actually managed to keep myself from crying during the supp classes, even though I felt like a walking zombie that day. That was a miracle really, but I just didn't wanna cry in front of anyone that day. That day felt like a nightmare to me and I literally had to get people to pinch me to get me to realise that it's not a nightmare, but reality that I'm gonna be going to 4A. That was how bad it was. But acceptance was a must at that point in time since there was nothing else I could do about it, so in about 3 days time from the day I got the news, I feel like I'm sort of back to normal again. But then again, who can be completely back to normal when stuff like that happens to them? I can only pray and hope that I'll have people that are nice to hang out with in class and make some good friends there. I'll miss 3D though... or at least the people I was close to in the class. But I feel really thankful and grateful through this experience as well cos my really good/best friends were all really encouraging through those really hard times and I know that they'll be there for me whenever things get hard for me in the future, and true friends are hard to find, so I'm just really thankful that I've made some really good and true friends that are always there for me, encouraging me and being there for me when I'm a big blob of emotional mess. Thank you guys and ily all so much <3 (I won't mention the names, you guys know who you are ;) )

2INNAE CLASS CHALET (from 3rd to 5th December) :D
3rd to 5th December was hands down one of the best 3 days of 2013 and my life, cos I got to spend the 3days and 2 nights with the most amazing group of people that I have ever met in my whole entire existence. (nope I'm not even kidding) And I'm really really really proud of the chalet comm (which includes me, Angeline, Darren, Glenda, Clarice, Casilda, Yong Lin and Ze Wei) cos we managed to organize a really rather successful class chalet and to me, this year's was even more successful than last year's! (I was in the chalet comm last year too so I'm not being biased) The chalet that Darren helped us book was really HUGE, like it was a freaking bungalow chalet with a front yard that has a mini pond, a backyard that leads to pasir ris park, a living room, a dining area at the back of the living room, a kitchen, 4 rooms that are linked to the chalet (which means that it's not in the same area as the living room, kitchen and dining area) and 5 toilets. So no one had to squeeze anywhere and it was really comfortable, and we only occupied 3 rooms out of the 4, though every single one of us that stayed overnight (about 10-14 people sorry I'm too lazy to count exactly how many :P) squeezed into 1 room on the second night to talk and play games.

Day 1 to Day 2:
About half of the chalet comm met up early at 11am at pasir ris mrt to finalise some final details about the chalet. Then at 12pm we met up with the rest who came on day 1 before heading to the food court in white sands shopping centre for lunch. At about 1.30 we headed to catch the shuttle bus that drove us to E-hub to get the groceries before walking to the chalet (aloha loyang). As we were walking to the chalet, it started raining pretty heavily and half of us didn't bring an umbrella so we were using our bags to shelter us from the rain and running to the chalet. The sight of that was actually really funny hahaha. Then Darren's dad came to help us check into the chalet before we settled into the chalet and waited for the rain to stop while hoping really hard that we'll be able to bbq that night. While we were waiting for the rain to stop, we played card games on the living room floor and half way through the games (brace yourselves cos this is freaking funny hahaha), a monkey came into the living room to grab the 100plus that Angeline left on the floor and we were all super shocked and some of us freaked out a little (like me ahem cos idk but I'm super scared of animals) but it was super funny cos a monkey like A MONKEY ran into the chalet hahahahahaha. Since when do monkeys come into the chalet anyway?!!! HAHAHA. Anyway, after the monkey incident, we played for a little while more before we started preparing the food for the bbq and bbq-ed at the balcony cos the rain still hasn't stopped, but it wasn't really that much of a problem cos we had some guides and scout (like Nat, Zhauyue, Eunice, Darren and Glenda who's not a guide nor scout) in the class to handle the fire etc. Kudos to them for being able to handle the situation so well!! (: After the bbq, we started to do our own things again and me, Angeline, Jun De, Zhau Yue, Huiyuen and Karyn (both who left earlier and ended up pushing each other into the swimming pool in the chalet though that's a whole different story) started to fill up the water balloons (which were gonna be used in running man the next day), and as we had to test out the balloons to see if they would burst when we throw it, we ended up having a water balloon fight hahahaha. The funniest part came when Darren was standing outside the kitchen window and Jun De was standing in front of the kitchen window in the kitchen, and Darren threw the balloon so it hit Jun De's mouth and the water that burst out from the balloon started gurgling down his throat making him choke on the water hahahaha (it was funny cos he was just coughing, don't get me wrong! (: ) Then at about 10.30++ they wanted to watch insidious 2 and I was way too scared to watch the horror movie cos the last time I watched 1, I puked while watching the movie and I had hallucinations for 3 months straight every single night. Worst experience ever, and I promised myself I'm never gonna let myself go through that again so I blasted music in my ears while they were watching and tried really hard to sleep while being in the living room with them, though I only closed my eyes and rested my mind a little cos I couldn't seem to sleep. About half an hour before the movie ended which was past midnight, Darren's mum came by and brought us supper (which I thought was really nice of her cos it was super late by then), so after the movie ended we just gathered at the back of the living room where there was a big table (not the dining table) to talk and eat. Afterwards, we all gathered around on the floor to play indian poker and some of us tried to sabo certain people into having to do the forfeit (drink some mixture of drinks which is kind of disgusting) and it was really funny cos some of the drinks that came out were super disgusting and the people who drank it had really funny faces hahaha. Then at about 3+ I couldn't take how tired I was anymore so I went to sleep, along with Huiyuen and Karyn but we ended up only sleeping at 4+ cos we were chatting in the room haha. The rest slept at about 4+ as well and Angeline and Glenda slept at 5+. I woke up at about 6.30 in the morning but I went back to sleep afterwards cos I was way too tired and we were gonna play runningman later that morning. (As you can see, day 1 kind of joined with day 2 cos we didn't sleep much haha) But that was a really great start to a great class chalet (:

Day 2 to Day 3:
I woke up at about 8.30-9am on day 2 and along with the chalet comm, we went to wake the rest who were still sleeping up. So by 9.15, everyone was up. We or some of us had breakfast (bread and Nutella) while playing with our phones and then later playing card games again (like pig, cheat and dai di etc). At about 11am to 11.30am the people that could only make it on the 2nd day came to join us for the games and running man, and we started off the games with the "lunch station" at about 12pm. That was a pretty fun but also rather disgusting station cos we had to eat raw vegetables in sandwiches and we had to stuff ourselves with tuna/ham and cheese. My "games" group when lunch started consisted of me, Nat, Darren and Eunice. Then after our lunch ended, we had to drink a disgusting concoction of lime and salt water, and it was really gross so I gulped it down in 1 very big gulp while some of the rest held in their mouths (idk why they torture themselves like that though hahaha). Then after the "lunch game", we played "photo zone" (for those of you that watch running man, you'll know what I'm talking about haha) and it was super funny cos everyone looked so unglam while jumping especially Zhau Yue who looked like she was advertising for shampoo company hahahaha. I'm really tempted to post all the unglams of everyone (but me xD) here cos I cropped every single one of them out but I shall be nice and keep then within the entertainment of 2I hahahahaha. (I shall be there to remind them of their unglam faces once in a while ;) ) Anyway, after "photo zone", we played the "balloon game" where all of us have to tie a balloon to our ankle and pop someone else's balloon. That was actually really fun though it can be quite scary for those that are scared of balloons! Then after the "balloon game", we rested for an hour plus before heading out from the back door to Pasir Ris park to play running man. My running man group consisted of me, Darren, Eunice and Karyn (and supposedly Nat but she didn't take part cos she wasn't feeling well). It was super muddy at the park cos it rained the whole night before so everyone ended up having mud all over their legs and shirts but I think we had a lot of fun. My group was on the losing end while playing the game cos Me and Karyn got wiped out a while after the game started and Eunice was nowhere to be seen lol, so Darren was basically like the "last man standing" in the group and then after a really long time later when Eunice returned, she and Darren both helped bring the group to a shocking win cos I was pretty sure we were gonna lose hahaha. After the game ended, we went to the toilet to wash up so that we were less muddy before going back to the chalet where we started throwing the remaining water balloons from running man at each other and then filling up pails and bottles to pour at each other, and I had a lot of fun with them (: Afterwards, we bathed and the guys went out to E-hub for dinner while the girls stayed in the chalet to eat cup noodles. We were pretty quiet at one point in time cos the guys are mostly the ones bringing up the atmosphere but at the same time, we were all kind of tired after the games, but we started to become chatty again afterwards and we started to talk about random stuff. Then at about 8+, the guys came back and we started to watch white chicks which was really funny (though there were some sick parts lol) hahahaha. Halfway through the movie or after, Nat's mum came by and she bought us a cake from bengawan solo and at about 10-11+, the movie ended and the guys started to play their com games while me and Angeline started to talk about random things, and the other girls either went to sleep or started to talk about their kpop stuff haha. Then at about 12+, some of us decided that we should have some "class bonding" (cos though we're no longer in the same class we're still really bonded and quite close and innaeians are awesome hahahaha <3) so we woke everyone who was sleeping up and gathered in the extra room which no one was using, and started to play cheat, then indian poker, then we just sat there saying random jokes haha. Then at about 2-3+ I think?, me, Glenda, Zhauyue, Gabriel and Lester (who was just watching from the side) started to play "stress" and cheat while the rest were sleeping. After wards, we got bored with it so we started to play "charades" (the phone app) which was really fun and Darren (who was using his phone) joined us to play. Zhauyue was the funniest in the game cos she sucks at it hahahahaha and she gives really really funny answers. My favourite funny part from Zhauyue was when we were playing the theme "fairytale" and she had to guess "gingerbread man", so we told her "can eat one!!" And she said "THE REINDEER" HAHAHAHAHAHA WE ALMOST DIED LAUGHING HAHAHAHA. And the best part is that she's always so confident of her answers but most of them end up being wrong hahahahahaha. Anyway, at about 4.30-5+ in the morning, Nat woke up and joined us in charades and cos we played the whole night through without stopping, we got bored after a while more and we ended up playing "asshole daidi" haha. At about 6.55-6.58 in the morning, we managed to catch the sun rise from the room but we couldn't see much cos of the angle at which the room was located and at about 7 we decided that we needed to rest for an hour before waking up to pack up the chalet and pack up our stuff before we checked out and went home. That was the first time I managed to keep myself awake till the next morning though I felt like a walking zombie the next day (in a very good way this time cos I had fun haha) and I started to have a headache, but I had a really fun night with the few who managed to stay awake the whole night cos not only did we play charades, card games, and said jokes, we also had a really good time talking and sort of catching up with one another after not talking to each other for a really long time, and it's honestly one of THE BEST nights ever in my whole 15 years of life though my body clock was pretty screwed up for the next 2-3 days hahaha (:

Anyway, time to post some pictures!!!!! :)

The living room from which you can see the backyard! (sorry I do not have a better picture haha)

The rooms (and the one you can see is the last one which means that there's 3 more beside it)

The living room (:

The people who were helping out with the bbq (:

Bbq in the process!


Running man group//Winning team :D

2Innae <3 // photo 1 (:

2Innae <3 // photo 2 (:
And here are the people who attended!! :
Casilda, Eunice, Yong Lin, Darren, Nat, Jun De, Lester, Adriell (who isn't in the photo cos he left early in the morning on day 2), Keith, Gabriel, Karyn, Glenda, Angeline, Zhau Yue, Shermaine, Angel, Hui Yuen and Me :D

Ps. Credits to Angeline and her camera for all the pics!! (:

I had the time of my life there and one of the best days ever in 2013, and I seriously love this group of people to death <3 This class made the whole "looking forward to 2I class chalet since the last chalet ended" process so worthwhile cos I enjoyed every single minute I spent there even though only half the class attended (which was still a lot honestly cos the whole chalet comm only expected about 15-16 people to attend but there's 18 that came in the end, and everyone tried to make time for it and those that couldn't make it on the first day came on the second day, and there were those that wanted to come but couldn't cos of various understandable reasons!). I couldn't have asked for a better class back in year 1 and 2 :')



Week 1

I don't really know what to say of week 1 of school reopen but I think it's had it's ups and downs/ goods and bads. Day 1 wasn't as bad as I had expected it to be. I mean sure when I first got to the class, I literally just placed my bag down and ran out of the class within less than a minute, forgetting to bring my tie down to the hall for flag raising in the process and went to find Kelly, Karyn, Charlotte and Hui Yuen cos I couldn't stand being in that class for another second (I don't mean this in a bad way) but things could have been a lot worse. Day 2 was freaking horrendous, and it honestly couldn't be worse. It's seriously one of the worst days of my life ever (cos I freaking embarrassed myself in front of the whole damn class and I puked cos my asthma started acting up again during pe and I just felt really terrible afterwards and we ended at 4 freaking 45 pm on that day. Remember when I thought a 4.15 day was bad last year? Ha ha ha.) I don't know but I don't even wanna talk about day 2. Day 3 and 4 was pretty okay I suppose. Went home with Kelly and Charlotte (I can't actually remember whether Karyn was with us but I think not oops ><) on day 3 and I had a "catch up" session and on day 4 I went for lunch with Joy whom I haven't talked to ever since the last time we met up during the hols so it was a pretty major catch up session with her and I had a really really good time with her! But then again, I always do (: I didn't have CCA on day 5 so I went home with Karyn and I was really sad that day (sort of hahaha) cos I had to have dinner myself since my dad was still at work and my mum had to go to my bro's school for some badge ceremony thingy after work where apparently they got some pretty good food (AND THEY DIDN'T BRING ME BACK ANY AHEM AHEM HAHAHA). But that was pretty much how my first week at school went excluding the weekends which wasn't exactly very interesting lol. 

Week 2 has just started and so far it's been quite okay. Monday (yesterday) was pretty good cos I met up with Joy and Jasmine (my old table partners (: ) to have recess together and I had a really good time with them especially when we got to catch up with each other and it was really funny cos we wanted to buy yong tau foo at first but we decided against it after choosing all the ingredients we wanted since the queue was really long, so we had to shamelessly put back all the ingredients before running to the vegetarian stall to buy food (and the first shameless person to go put the food back was Jasmine hahahaha and Joy the not loyal one left me there at the stall to fend for myself while she ran of to the vegeterian stall tskkkk). I met up with Karyn and Charlotte after school to go to the canteen to eat and at the same time talk just like old times when I was still taking BSP before going home when they had to go for BSP. Tuesday hasn't been that bad. I had geog first in the morning before having PE which I couldn't take part in cos my knee is literally bruised (it's a really long story on how I got that...) and it's causing my knee to hurt so I can't even really walk properly. Then we had 2 hours of maths (YES I SAID IT. TWO HOURS) but to be honest, it didn't really feel like 2 hours cos Mr Yeo's quite a good teacher and he's funny so math lesson's rather interesting now. Then afterwards we had break and I went with Kelly and my old 3D clique before returning back to class for chinese and I realised that the teacher isn't exactly as bad as I thought she would be on the very first lesson I had with her. Then afterwards we had CCE and then English where Mr Sng was being really funny (as per usual) and he really makes English lessons really interesting! (: Oh and he bought the  class 2 packets of sweets (the Natural brand sweet?) so that we won't fall asleep in his class since it's our last period and we have lessons lasting till 4.45pm (again). Then I met up with Potato to go home with her and I had fun (even though it was for a really short time only) (: Today has been a really long day. I started off with geog which was okay then it was history so me and Adrianne had free period again so we went to the table and bench near Block G to do our work and we managed to come up with some pretty good ideas for the English Commercial Project that we're required to do. Then after we were done with the ideas, we started to talk and I realised how funny she can be and I had a really good time with her haha (: After history was recess then maths, then chem. Chem was honestly not that good (that's actually a major understatement) cos the teacher came up with the seating arrangement and of ALL the people I could sit with, I was placed next to _______. And I literally just started to curse in front of the entire class cos I was like "FML WTF IS THIS. THIS IS F**KING BULLSHIT." (sorry mind my language but I was actually pretty pissed at that time and seriously disturbed/creeped out) And can I just say how uncomfortable I felt throughout the lesson ugh. But after one really really loooooooong 1.5 hours of chem (probably one of the longest 1.5 hours in my life ever), we went back to class for CME and then we had break before we had 3 periods of chinese. I fell asleep a few times halfway through chinese cos the teacher was going on and on about some stuff in the textbook and I was really really tired. This is what having 2 consecutive 4+ days do to you LOL. But anyway, after chinese ended, I went home with Shi Kai who I haven't gone home with in a while and we talked about school stuff etc and I had a pretty good train ride with her (:

Anyway, I shall stop blogging now so till the next time I blog (: xx

Isn't this cute??? AND IT EVEN HAS BRACES LIKE ASDFGHJKL




You gave me every reason to believe that what we have is real and I'm never gonna let you go now, so don't you ever let go of me too cos I can't lose you, ever. This year's gonna be one tough year, but we've made it through every single obstacle that has come in our way and we'll make it through this year too. We'll make us last, together.
Ps. I need you to know how badly I miss and need you every single day so please don't turn away from me anymore cos it hurts every single time you do that...

Thursday, October 24, 2013

Tomorrow will be a better day.

Okay, so this is gonna be like a super quick post. I just needed to get this out of my system before I start drowning in my thoughts and start feeling super angst about it that I won't be able to sleep at night. 

Firstly, today hasn't been the best day. I got back some of my results and I was pleasantly surprised for chem which is a good thing, but the other papers were just shitty cos I expected to do better for my LA and HCL but I screwed them both up which was seriously disappointing and I was disappointed to the extent that I didn't even have the appetite to eat my lunch. I think the level screwed LA up though cos the teacher who marked the paper is so strict, I was so shocked when I received my paper, especially when I expected a much better result. But nope, I'm not gonna let that discourage me cos I'm gonna think positive thoughts. And let's not even talk about Bio cos I expected to get that result so I didn't have a single feeling when I received my paper. So, I was still feeling super upset over the overall results for today and it sure as hell wasn't helping when I have FREAKING whiny people around me who were complaining about their results even though they did quite well, and they knew that I didn't do as well but is just so damn insensitive about your feelings that they couldn't be bothered?? And these certain people (or should I say a particular someone) was seriously pissing me off and it was all I could do to not ask x (let's call this person x) to shut up??? I mean seriously, x knew exactly how upset and unhappy I was, but she decided that it would be really nice to add salt to my wound and she completely rounded me up to the extent that I literally just snapped right in front of her (or everyone) and I started to cry cos x had to make me feel so freaking upset that I just broke down. Oh and guess what? The moment x knew she really upset me, she turned away and started to complain to others about how "BADLY" she did, and it's like she doesn't know that she upset me??? Or are you just simply acting ignorant. Like can you at least be a little more considerate or more sensitive to people's feelings? The world doesn't only revolve around you okay. STOP BEING SO SELF CENTERED. But okay, enough with the rants. 

On the other hand, I'm really glad and super thankful that my friends (close friends) aren't like x. Like Kelly who saw that I was about to break down so she quickly came over to comfort me and talk to me which was really comforting and it made me feel a little better. And thank you Shi Kai and Angel for trying to comfort me virtually. You guys are seriously seriously the bestest friends I can ever ask for and I'm so glad I met you guys<3

And I'm so grateful that my parents are being so understanding towards me. I know I've been quite the disappointment, but I promise, I'm not gonna disappoint anymore. Just you watch. I won't let anyone (especially myself) down anymore. I promise.

Alright, time to end my blog post and I believe tomorrow will be a better day :) xx

Think positive Li Qi. Think positive. And this applies to so many aspects. 

To you.
Please don't let me go.

Wednesday, October 23, 2013

Hold on baby, we'll get through this.

Hey guys((: I haven't updated my blog in what seems like forever cos I've been really busy preparing for the EOYs which is FINALLY OVER :D So now, I have more time to update my blog and do whatever I want (okay not really haha but you get my point :) ) Anyway, I shall start blogging now (:

Friday
Had my final paper for the year (Maths 2) which I think was slightly easier than Maths 1 and my poor class had Bamboo as our invigilator who was being really annoying cos when the paper ended he kept saying: "It's not over yet, I still have stuff to do/tell you all." And I was screaming in my mind like "CAN YOU JUST GET IT OVER AND DONE WITH ALREADY. I'VE BEEN WAITING FOR THIS DAY SINCE THE START OF THE YEAR UGH." So when he FINALLY released us, I ran to get my bag, threw everything into it, and ran out of the class to find Angel and Shi Kai, before we went to bugis to have lunch together. Had a really great day with them cos we haven't met together as a clique to have fun and talk to each other in a really long time and the only time we did meet up, was to study. So, it was a really great catch up with them :) It took us a really long time to find something to eat at bugis cos the food there was either too ex or they just didn't seem nice but we finally settled for some hongkong cafe (?) and the food was really nice and it was pretty worth it too so yeah, we were really satisfied with that meal :) Then after lunch, we went to Bugis Street to get matching bracelets (like friendship bracelets hahaha) before we window shopped at bugis junction for a little while and then we went home. And that pretty much sums up my friday which was quite a well spent and good day (:





Saturday
I went to Malaysia with my family that day cos we haven't been there for about 4 months with my brother being busy with his PSLE previously, and me being busy with school work and my EOYs, so we haven't exactly had the chance to go visit my grandmother and my cousins. So that day, we went to shop first before we took a cab to go to my grandmother's house to visit her as well as my cousins(: I had a really great day with them cos my parents decided to bring us all out to the nearest shopping center and my cousins wanted to go to the arcade to play so I explored the inner kid in me and played all sorts of weird games with my cousins and I actually had a lot of fun cos I was being really childish and stuff hahaha xD Then we went back and I saw my really cute nephew who just turned 1 and I started to play with him and he was such a cutie pie I CAN'T EVEN <3 (okay I sound like a pedo, but he's just way too cute like seriously :) ) Then my cousins dragged me to play some kiddish game that I used to play back when I was still in primary school so I was seriously seriously just being a kid that day and acting like I'm 5 when I'm 15 LOL. But basically, I had a really great catch up with my cousins cos I haven't seem them in a really long time and I don't see them that often since they stay in malaysia. I'm really hoping that they'll be able to come to my house during the December holidays cos I always enjoy their visit and I always get to go to a lot of different places when they come and visit (:

My super duper cute nephew((: <3 I had to crop my face out cos I looked damn unglam here haha

I didn't really do much on Sunday except nua at home but I finally got to watch City of Bones which is something I've been dying to watch ever since it was released, but sadly, I was really disappointed by the movie cos it's not as nice as the book ): But it's okay, I'll stick to reading the book series cos the details are much better there(: (and not to mention that I TOTALLY ship Jace and Clary :P okay ignore me haha)

And I'm not gonna talk about Monday and today since there's nothing much to talk about and the only 2 things that I'm seriously looking forward to now is tomorrow where I'll be going out with my awesome table partners :) and 2INNAE CLASS CHALET WOOHOO ((: I'm in the planning comm for 2I's class chalet along with Clarice, Angeline, Glenda, Ze Wei, Casilda, Yong Lin and Darren (I don't know if he's officially in? haha but he helped us book the chalet so yeah (: ) so it's really pretty cool and I'm really looking forward to officially start planning for the class chalet and the things we're gonna do there and I just can't wait for the class chalet cos it'll be a really good catch up with all the Innaeians (or at least with those who're going though I'm hoping that majority of the class will be able to make it) and I really really can't wait especially since I really miss that class and I've been waiting for this chalet ever since the end of the last one haha(: But as for now, I'm taking each day as it comes and I'm hoping that it won't rain tomorrow cos I'm gonna go out and have fun with my crazy table partners who are also the funniest people I've sat with in my current class (: And then 2INNAE CLASS CHALET HERE I COME :DDD

Okay I shall stop blogging now but I promise I'll start blogging more often since I have time now(:

PS. Thank you Kelly Ng for your really touching and encouraging message before the official start of EOY that really helped encourage and push me during that really stressful and tough period for me, especially when your message was really long and you took the time and effort to type that during that really busy period. I can't be more thankful and grateful to have a friend like you(: <3 Okay you most probably won't see this but it's okay cos I already told you all that I had to and needed to say, but I needed to say this on here as well cos the message you sent me came totally unexpected and I was seriously touched especially when I was on the verge of just falling apart and giving up and I was feeling really stressed up about everything, and that helped to sort of hold me together and push me to keep moving forward and it was like a really unexpected source of motivation. So thanks a lot especially since (like you said in your message) that you don't do this often for people and I know this isn't really in your personality :') And thank you Potato (Jing Ying) for sending me a few jiayou messages too to motivate me before and during the EOYs cos I told you before that I'm actually really scared and worried and stressed out for the EOYs and you listened to me and talked to me and you'll always ask me how I'm doing every time we talk which really touches me cos you're one of the few people that genuinely cares so thanks so much(: You guys are the best <3



I saw this gif on tumblr and I thought that it's really cute haha :)



And to you, please don't give up on me cos I don't know what I'd do if I ever lost you.