Firstly, today hasn't been the best day. I got back some of my results and I was pleasantly surprised for chem which is a good thing, but the other papers were just shitty cos I expected to do better for my LA and HCL but I screwed them both up which was seriously disappointing and I was disappointed to the extent that I didn't even have the appetite to eat my lunch. I think the level screwed LA up though cos the teacher who marked the paper is so strict, I was so shocked when I received my paper, especially when I expected a much better result. But nope, I'm not gonna let that discourage me cos I'm gonna think positive thoughts. And let's not even talk about Bio cos I expected to get that result so I didn't have a single feeling when I received my paper. So, I was still feeling super upset over the overall results for today and it sure as hell wasn't helping when I have FREAKING whiny people around me who were complaining about their results even though they did quite well, and they knew that I didn't do as well but is just so damn insensitive about your feelings that they couldn't be bothered?? And these certain people (or should I say a particular someone) was seriously pissing me off and it was all I could do to not ask x (let's call this person x) to shut up??? I mean seriously, x knew exactly how upset and unhappy I was, but she decided that it would be really nice to add salt to my wound and she completely rounded me up to the extent that I literally just snapped right in front of her (or everyone) and I started to cry cos x had to make me feel so freaking upset that I just broke down. Oh and guess what? The moment x knew she really upset me, she turned away and started to complain to others about how "BADLY" she did, and it's like she doesn't know that she upset me??? Or are you just simply acting ignorant. Like can you at least be a little more considerate or more sensitive to people's feelings? The world doesn't only revolve around you okay. STOP BEING SO SELF CENTERED. But okay, enough with the rants.
On the other hand, I'm really glad and super thankful that my friends (close friends) aren't like x. Like Kelly who saw that I was about to break down so she quickly came over to comfort me and talk to me which was really comforting and it made me feel a little better. And thank you Shi Kai and Angel for trying to comfort me virtually. You guys are seriously seriously the bestest friends I can ever ask for and I'm so glad I met you guys<3
And I'm so grateful that my parents are being so understanding towards me. I know I've been quite the disappointment, but I promise, I'm not gonna disappoint anymore. Just you watch. I won't let anyone (especially myself) down anymore. I promise.
Alright, time to end my blog post and I believe tomorrow will be a better day :) xx
Think positive Li Qi. Think positive. And this applies to so many aspects.
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