I feel that confidence is a beautiful thing. And learning to love yourself, should come before you learning to love anything, or anyone else. There're so many people in the world today that claim that they love themselves, but how many of them actually really do?
Self-esteem is such a controversial topic. So many things out there provoke our self esteem, and the way we define beauty. Pictures of celebrities, photoshopped, and edited has blinded many of us from what true beauty is. Beauty is not perfection. Beauty is knowing that you as an individual, have flaws, and accepting them as a part of yourself. This is something that's so easy to say, but so hard to do. Everyone has self esteem issues - be it body issues, or confidence issues. I do not deny that personally, I go through these struggles. Some days, I think that I am not good enough for anyone, and some days, I feel like I never will be. Some days, I look in the mirror and I nitpick at every bad thing about myself (be it on my face, or at certain body parts - thighs, stomach etc.)
Self acceptance is not easy, and I'm still trying and learning to do that for myself everyday. Someone once told me to do things for myself, and not for other people, and not to get peer pressured into doing something to please others. I feel that, to a certain extent, those words have kept me grounded to staying true to myself. As a matter of fact, I am not a confident individual. Little things (or what appears as little to others at least) like pimples, or face blemishes in general, tummy fats etc get to me alot. I think my lowest point came when I could barely look at myself in the mirror because everytime I did, I felt so bad about myself - almost worthless. And at that time, I have never felt smaller as an individual. Well, I have not yet learnt to love myself. But I am going to learn how to one day.
Today, I make that promise to myself, that I will make my way towards becoming a self-loving individual step by step.
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