Clouds are shrouding us in moments unforgettable

Today sucked ass. I woke up with a shock at 10.21am and literally jumped out of my bed cos I was supposed to be awake at 9 plus for PW meeting, but apparently, they were just signing out of school at that time cos most of my group members had physics supp class this morning, and they went to play bball after that LOLOL. Then after brushing my teeth and bathing and stuff, my cramps hit me like a truck and I've been in pain since 11am plus this morning. I've eaten 5 panadols and the pain still isn't subsiding and times like this, I really really hate being a girl ugh. (Boys should never complain they are in pain unless they got kicked in the balls or something, but even that subsides in awhile cos they haven't felt real pain, unless they've gone through labour which is apparently 10x more painful than cramps, or cramps like mine wtf. I hate cramps. I wanted to vomit so many times today cos of how painful they were, and it sucks when you've eaten so much panadol, and you've used your heat pack till your skin has kinda burnt, but the pain still doesn't want to go away. Boys should never complain that life sucks cos at least they don't have to deal with a blood bath once every freaking month, for goodness sake.) My cramps actually went away twice during the day, but it came back afterwards too, so it really kinda sucks. I went out at like 5 plus to find my PW group at the library near my house cos my cramps subsided at that time (it has come back though... sighhh) and my fave piggy came out of the library to look for me before I met up with our group, to give me a huge ass hug to comfort me, because I've been complaining to him about my pain for the whole freaking day, and he has been listening to me really patiently even though he can't do anything to help, and he kept checking up on me throughout the day to make sure I'm okay, and I really really needed the hug at that time hehe. He also treated me to nice seaweed he got from the value dollar shop in the mall and IT WAS SO NICE HEHE. (He is sooooo nice and soooooo cute and soooooo lovable x92385792857 and of course, sooooo huggable, I just wanna hug him 24/7 HEHE)

((why is he such a cutie omg hehehe❤❤❤))

Also, it is already thursday, and my sept hols are coming to an end omg. This is kinda horrible cos I haven't really been very productive this hols, especially today, cos I'm really too unwell to do anything and I feel so bad about it, but okay, I shall try to make up for it either tonight, or over the remaining 3 days of my sept hols hahaha (!!!). There are still many things on my timetable left uncompleted and I have not started on my Application of Differentiation tutorial at all, andddd I think there's E.lit homework that I haven't done either, as well as one econs essay corrections. Sigh. My stress level is increasing and maybe that's why my cramps got so bad today, and I'm having irregular pimple outbreaks boooo ): ): 

On a side note, the last time I updated my blog, I forgot to mention that I visited dhs exactly a week ago on teacher's day celebration with Felicia, and I met up with a few of my friends whom I haven't seen in about 6 to 7 months!!! I was really happy though I was kinda sad at the same time cos I actually went back for the food but the canteen was closed and the drink stall wasn't selling cup drinks that day ): But I was so happy too cos I finally met up with old friends and even though it was a really short meet up, it was really really gr8 hehehe :) They bombarded me with questions I expected them to bombard me with (those who follow me on my pa will understand LOLOL) and yup I really CAN'T WAIT to have a proper meet up with them after our promos and PW OP ends, cos I really wanna catch up with them on everything I've missed out on from their lives over the past few months hehe :) I also saw a few other old friends in school from 4A and 2I, and I really hope there'll be a 2I outing soon cos I've missed them a lot since we last saw each other on V'day this year HAHA.

Oh and I found it quite amusing how some people I knew didn't recognize me when they saw me like LOL IDEKY COS I DIDN'T EVEN CHANGE MUCH EXCEPT FOR THE CONTACTS LOLOL. But yup, I can't wait to go back to dhs again soon cos I miss the canteen soooo much omg. I can't believe I used to complain about the lack of food in the canteen cos after going to YJC, I realized how good dhs' food is and the canteen is the one thing apart from the people, that I've missed from the school LOL. Like, shit I miss their dan fan, and filled to the brim 80cents milo, and 50cents soya bean milk and barley drink that's filled to the brim too, and their thai food, and their tauhuay, and I miss their bao and lor mai kai and omg the list could go on and on. YJ's food might be nice and all BUT IT'S EXPENSIVE AND THEY ARE SO STINGY, ESP THE DRINK STALL OMG THEY GIVE LIKE 3/4 THE CUP FOR DRINKS AND THEY SELL IT AT RATHER EXPENSIVE PRICES BOOOO AND THE CAIFAN STALL IS A RIP OFF WTF JDNFSDJF but okay I shall stop complaining about the food cos there are nice food too like nasi lemak, mee rebus, mee siam, bakhut mee sua, kway chap, curry chicken noodle, fish soup noodle, fried fish soup noodle ahhh okay shall stop listing out the nice food in YJ too cos I'm getting hungry and I don't even know where all this blabbering is taking me LOL. This must be the doing of the 5 panadols I've taken today, but yas okay shall end off now andddd okay BACK TO STUDYING. 

"Focus. Hard work pays."

You make my heart feel like it's summer

About 3 to 4 more weeks to promos and I've been rather or very busy lately so I haven't had the time to blog and these past few weeks have been tiring and trying though it's also been pretty good to me hehe.

3 weeks ago I underwent insomnia and the feeling was so horrible cos I was exhausted as heck but I just couldn't sleep no matter what and I went through that for 3 freaking days, I wanted to cry so badly but I didn't even have the energy to. Thank God I finally started sleeping better on the 4th day and my sleep cycle started returning to normal slowly afterwards.

Am starting to get a little stressed out with work and stuff cos the workload is really starting to come in, and sometimes I feel like I won't be able to catch up on my work, cos truth be told, I haven't been working as hard this term as compared to the previous 2 terms but I'm gonna spend my sept hols wisely, and catch up on all my work within this 1 week hols, cos we can do alot in a week. I've already planned out my sept hols timetable and now it's fully packed which means I won't have time for any non-work related activities until post promos, and I hope I have the focus and drive and determination to push myself to try to keep up to and complete at least 70% of the things on the timetable. I'll make this sept hols a productive one cos I really need to do well for promos.

I remember starting off this year with a note of "work hard and don't disappoint yourself or anyone around you again" to myself this year, and I really do not want to fail myself cos I think I've done enough of that over the past 4 years. The past 4 years has taught me alot in so many different aspects, and I hope I grow from all that, and become better.

// Side note from work and school and all, someone has entered my life and I hope he stays for good, cos he is so lovable and so kind and understanding; he's always ALWAYS there for me despite my rants, my worries, and me and my overthinking habits. He always listens, and he's always around - be it physically or virtually to comfort me each time I confide in him.

He is my happy pill. He injects my world with happiness and positivity, and I am so grateful for his existence.

But most importantly, I am so grateful and thankful for I am a very very lucky girl to be cared for and loved by someone like him. I am the luckiest to have him; and I love him very very very much (!!!) .

"They were right when they said love is boundless; 

Except, they left out the part, 

where my heart would be bound to yours infinitely, 

and that your taste would be left in my mouth so tenderly."