Fragmented

Mid way through the June hols and my exams ended last wednesday and idk but even though I only have 2 weeks of hols left, I'm quite glad that I don't have to spend all 4 weeks of it slogging my ass off to prepare for exams right after the hols which is exactly what alot of students from other JCs are doing. It's funny cos this exam is only the block tests and not even promos or A's but I felt the stress I felt for O's and idk if it's a good thing, but I guess it's a way for me to push myself to study cos I really don't wanna let myself or anybody else around me down, and when BTs finally ended, I remember how I had this smile on my face and for the first time in weeks, I was able to breathe. That day was also the first time in weeks that I didn't stay back in school till like 5/ 6plus to study, and it felt really good.

I went to AMK hub that afternoon to look for the bio people cos they ended in the morning after maths, and me and Cher went to join them after our lit paper, and I had a really good time with all of them, just lepaking at macs and talking about life, and reminiscing about the good times during the adventure camp. It was nice just sitting there with them and talking, and not having to do anything else like study.

At this point in time, I guess I just really wamna say how much I appreciate certain people in my class cos I really don't think I would be able to get through my JC life without them, esp gq, josh, damain, liseem, chartay, jr and kath. Thank you so much for helping me get through the past 5 months guys. I really don't know how I would have done it without you guys. You guys don't even know how much you've done for me. It was really hard leaving dhs, esp the certain people that I've left behind at dhs, and having to move on from certain things have been a challenge, but you guys gave me a new focus, and it's hard to believe that people I've only known for like 5 months will be there for me everytime I need someone to be, but I know that you guys will be, cos you guys have done so much for me, supporting me and encouraging me; pushing me on. The fact that I'm so comfortable with you guys, that I'm able to tell you guys so much stuff, the fact that I trust you guys so much when I don't even trust people that easily to begin with, says alot. This amount of comfort isn't something that I feel with alot of people and though I feel comfortable with each of you in different ways, it is very important for me to let yall know just how important each of you are in my life. It's hard to believe that yall have become such important people in my life in such a short period of time, but I am very grateful, cos yall make me so happy. 

I remember how I was telling one of my teachers in dhs that I really didn't want to leave dhs cos I'm scared of how I wouldn't be able to adapt in a new environment, one that is out of my comfort zone, and I think it's funny how I've managed to find a comfort zone within you guys, and though some days, I regret the times when I didn't study hard enough to stay in dhs cos dhs has a good studying environment, that's like the only reason for which I'll regret leaving dhs, cos everything else has been really good, esp the people that I've met. DHS and YJC are like two different worlds, but for every one of their differences, I am grateful.

I think I kinda digressed alittle, but I guess I just really wanted to let you guys know that I am very grateful for everything that you guys have done, and for making me laugh alot, and making me very very happy, cos yall make my life so much better. And thank you for tolerating me and my random moodswings LOL and my nonsense sometimes, and my rants and complaints. Idk, but just thank you for tolerating and accepting my flaws. You guys light up my life in every way possible, and thank you, for despite the ups and downs, you guys have been such blessings in my life.