Right here, right now

"When the world stops spinning, and we pass the mountains of catastrophe //

will you still be by my side?"

I figured that in our life, many temporary people enter and then subsequently leave. And when you're lucky, there are the rare few who step into your life to stay for good. In our lives, we meet many fake and pretentious people who bitch about you behind your backs and act like they are angels in front of you (ew why do such disgusting people exist) but there are also times, when you find the few gems of precious genuine friends. Those are the people who bring about a truck load of good(s) into your life, and they're the ones you fight for to keep. And I must say that even though I had a sudden influx of fake pretentious people entering my life in recent months/years (maybe cos that's what growing up does), I've also been v lucky in finding some rly genuine and lovely friends who are rly worth fighting for and keeping in my life :) But anyway, this isn't the main point of the post, it's just a random thought that came to my mind as I began blogging HAHAHA.

I just came back from Turkey 5 days ago on friday evening, and I am still somewhat jet lagged, but Turkey has been wonderful. It's a rly special country cos it's both Asia and Europe at the same time, and even though the flight there was 11hours plus and 10hours plus back (cos there wasn't a delay on the way back), it was super worth it. I was not expecting the country to be as beautiful as it was, and I loved it there, and I miss it so much already!!! I'll definitely go back there again one day hehehe :)

We went to many places like Istanbul > Troy > Canakkale > Pamukkale > Cappadocia > Ankara > Bolu > then Istanbul again. One of my fave place out of all that we went to was Pamukkale cos we visited the Cotton Castle there and omg IT WAS BEAUTIFUL. The land there was naturally white due to the hot springs there and they looked like snow when it was rly calcium formed from the hot springs and that somehow spreaded all over the land there, and it was an amazing view. Another fave place of mine was Cappadocia. The highlight of that place apart from the cave houses was obviously the hot air balloon ride!!! The hot air balloon ride there was such an amazing experience. We were all on a hot air balloon that had nothing holding it below so we were basically flying in the air with the guy who was driving us around not being able to control anything, but taking off and landing, and everything else was controlled by the wind direction and it was rly cool. The view was spectacular and everything was beautiful and there was snow EVERYWHERE holy crap. Oh and we also saw a replica of the Trojan horse and we could climb into it HAHAHA. Ephesus was beautiful too and we saw the library of Celcius there and the Goddess Nike statue. We went to the Temple of Athena as well and though there were alot of rocks, they were rly nice cos all the rocks were made of natural marble IT WAS SO NICE. Basically to sum up the whole of Turkey, it was BEAUTIFUL and I rly loved it there HEHE. I also talked to the teens of the tour group and one of the girls is in DHS but in the smart class unlike me LMAO but yeah HAHAHA. During the last 10plus hours of the trip, I (kinda) made friends with a girl on the trip (her name is Shalom) cos we sat next to each other on the flight back to SG due to unforeseen circumstances and we talked quite alot and it was rly nice cos she was rly nice and cool HAHAHA and it wasn't that awkward cos we were able to talk to each other quite alot, and she just finished JC while I'm in JC so we have quite a few common topics to talk about (I guess HAHA) :) BUT yay it was a rly nice experience HEHE.

Troy // Trojan Horse

Temple of Zeus

Ephesus // Library of Celcius

Pamukkale // Cotton Castle

Cappadocia // Hot Air Balloons Ride

Shadow of our Hot Air Balloon when we went above the clouds HAHAHA

After coming back from Turkey, the first person I met was Josh and I have missed him alot after not seeing him for TEN DAYS but yay IM BACK NOW HAHAHAHA it was gr8 spending time with him again even though it was only for a short while hehehe❤❤❤

Then I met up with my 2I friends and I haven't seen most of them since I last saw them on vday this year and I have missed them ALOT ALOT. They had organised a class bbq and I was a little unsure of whether I should attend cos I haven't been in the same school as them for like a year and I could feel the gap between us whether or not it was rly there but I had no regrets attending at all, cos they never fail to make me feel like I belong with them no matter what happened. It was rly refreshing meeting them again cos I haven't seen them in a rly long time, and they were my closest friends in dhs when I was there, and tbh, a part of me was beginning to get rly detached from them, but seeing them again that day brought the attachment to them back and I LOVE THEM SO MUCH. I can't wait to see them again soon hehehe :)

"与你相遇好幸运，但我已失去为你泪流满面的权利"

I think about how there are certain people who come into your life, and leave a mark. I don’t mean the usual faint impression: he was cute, she was nice, they made me laugh, I wish I’d known her better, I remember the time she threw up in class. And, I don’t just mean that they changed you. A lot of people can change you – the first kid who called you a name, the first teacher who said you were smart, the first person who crowned you best friend. It’s the change you remember, the firsts and what they meant, not really the people.

Just hearing their names pushes and pulls at you in a hundred ways, and when you try to define those hundred ways, describe them even to yourself, words are useless. If you had a lifetime to talk, there would still be things left unsaid. //

I guess all we have left now are awkward eye contacts, accompanied by the silences; And maybe one day, all of these will get better, and we'll be okay again.

But right now, and as always, I hope you find your happiness X.

I'll be yours until the stars fall from the sky, till the sun no longer shines

Today was tiring, and painful ((cos cramps even though it wasn't at its worst)), but above all, it was a really really GR8 day anddd I HAD SUCH A GR8 TIME HEHEHE.

I met up with Josh in the morning and we walked around his condo, and sat at his condo's playground for awhile before going to Ice Edge Cafe near his house to eat lunch hehehe. There's a 1 for 1 offer there every Mon to Fri from 12pm to 3pm and the food is rly cheap so do check it out guys!! It's also v near the MRT so that's a plus point HAHAHA. After eating, we headed to SAM again to visit the photobooth and this time it was slightly better but the photos still looked a little bit bad LOL. We walked around SAM for a bit afterwards to take a look at the new exhibits there before we went to Sports Hub and started to walk around. We got a bit tired of walking around afterwards so we sat at a random place in Sports Hub to decide where to go next. We then decided to go to BK to eat a little ((he ate, I didn't cos cramps always lessen my appetite so I wasn't feeling hungry HAHA)), before we went to the open area facing Kallang River afterwards and we rly liked it there cos it was quiet and there weren't alot of people, and cos it was after the rain, so it wasn't hot and it was windy and calm, and it was just v peaceful. We talked quite a bit there, and just enjoyed each other's company in the comfortable silence sometimes, before we left. Oh and while we were sitting there and just talking, Josh told me a few days back while we were tele-ing each other, that he'd pray for me and my trip when we met up with each other, so I asked him to pray for me there today, and he did, and I listened to him, and prayed with him hehehe :) It was rly nice and I was rly touched by the things he said cos I wasn't expecting him to say some of the things he said but it was rly nice and comforting and heartwarming, even though I was the one who reminded him to pray for me today HAHAHA. He sent me to bishan and I missed a few trains just to spend more time with him since I'll be away for 10 days ((which means I won't get to see him or talk to him much during the 10 days ): )) before I left and took the train, and he left to meet the class guys cos they were gonna have a sleepover at Sath's house HAHAHA. 

I'm flying off to Turkey tomorrow night cos my flight is at around 11plus pm and I'm excited and worried for this trip all at the same time cos of the events that have been happening around the world recently, but Turkey is also vvvvv pretty and beautiful and nice according to the pictures and photos I've seen, and according to my friends who have gone there before, so I'm rly excited. Apparently, it is v cold there now, and my nose has been kinda runny recently so I hope the weather there won't rly affect it or aggravate my nose HAHA. I can't wait for the fun I'll have there, and for all the nice scenery I'll be able to see there, and maybe I'll also get to see snow!!! Let's hope I'll be warm enough there though HAHAHA. ((Will miss his warm hugs while I'm shivering there oh no but I'll definitely bug him for more when I get back HEHEHE HAHAHAHAHAHA))

I'll miss Josh ALOTTTTT, and my friends too, but I'll see them in ten days after I come back from my trip, esp those who I haven't met for a vvv long time and who have alot ALOT to update us on ((CHAN IM TALKING ABOUT U HEHEHEHE)), and I can't wait for everything that's upcoming HEHE.

I'll miss you so much when I'm away in Turkey ((and I know you'll miss me too HAHAHAHA HEHE)) but I'll see you in ten days when I get back to Singapore, and I'll send you lots of pics while I'm in Turkey HEHEHE. Meanwhile, please take care of yourself and have fun during the 3 days you're in KL and don't miss me too much HAHAHAHAHA I love you ((sooooo much)) baby and see you real soon :) X. ❤❤❤

// PS. I'll start to revise my work and studying hard, and focusing on my studies once I return from Turkey cos I rly rly need to start bucking up after I get back to Singapore, before school reopens and we start preparing for J2 and A's (!!!!!!)