The skies are crying with you.

Hi guys (: I'm so sorry for the lack of updates cos I've been so unbelievably busy this past week and I've had so much tests and yet it's still not the end of it!! And to add on to the tests, I have loads of homework so instead of having anytime to rest this weekend, I think I'll be spending most of my time mugging for next week's geog test and bio practical (Yes, I still have another 2 more tests and a few others in the next few weeks though I already had 4 in the past week. Can you feel my pain?) and trying to complete most of my homework. All of these are making me feel really mentally and physically exhausted. BUT, I'm still going on and strongly and I'll survive this torture haha. Anyway, I shall start blogging (:

Last Friday
It's like 1 week ago so I can't really remember what happened on that day but I do remember leaving the class at 1pm during ACE cos I had CIP later for the Maths Seminar and so I went to have lunch. I met up with Angel who I dragged to go to the CIP with and we had lunch together before heading to meet up with the rest doing the CIP outside the library. Over there, we were allocated our roles for the CIP and I was placed with Angel, Angeline and her friend, Joanna for ushering and the people to take care of the food. Then afterwards, we just waited for the different schools to start arriving and during that whole time, I was just praying that none of my primary school classmates will be there and I was so relieved when none of them was there :) (Sorry not sorry but those are just past memories that I don't wanna remember.) We then waited for the Guest Of Honor to arrive and when he arrived, I was asked to bring the Guest of Honor to the PAC since there was no one around to direct him. That was one of the most awkward moments of my life lol. Afterwards, when the food started to arrive, we just watched the people in charge of the catering do everything since we didn't know exactly what to do and then everyone left and the only people left were me, Angel, Angeline and Joanna outside the library. So basically, everything after that was a blur. We sat outside the library for about 1 hour plus before it was time for reception and that was when we started to get busy cos we needed to set up the counters and made sure that everything was in order. It was kind of boring at first, but it got better after that and we were all laughing like mad at each other's jokes and I had a really good time. That was like one of the most easy 4 to 5 hours of CIP gained ever since we didn't need to do much and I had free fooddd :))) After the CIP ended, I went home with Angel. It was a pretty good day overall.

Monday
I only remember having racial harmony day celebration on that day and it was quite fun cos we got to learn more of the different races and their culture though we got scolded by the year head after that for being too noisy. But, when you're having fun, who cares whether you're being noisy or not? I thought it was the juniors that deserved to get scolded instead since they were the ones talking most of the time, but then again, the seniors always take the blame so oh well. After the celebration, I had BSP so I met up with Charlotte and Karyn and we pigged around in the canteen as per usual before going for BSP which was boring as per usual. I'm starting to think that Monday is becoming a routine kind of thing lol.

Tuesday
It was like my annual blur day that day cos I lost my correction tape (it just disappeared into thin air), I thought I lost my pencil case (in actual fact, I just simply left it in class and forgot that I did) and I nearly lost my test tubes cos I left them in the bio lab and I had to run all the way down to collect it before I actually really lose them. Had quite a few near heart attacks that day LOL. Oh and did I mention that I had heart dissection that day? It was really fun after you stop thinking about the smell and it was a really good experience. The pictures we took were kind of bloody and gory though so I shan't post them here but it honestly wasn't that bad when we were doing it. The pictures do not give this whole activity any justice at all. My hands stink after that though but I had fun doing it with Joy and Kelly Gan (: I had CCA on that day and I tutored the P4 boy again and he was being quite good that day so I had quite a good time teaching him. But the best part was when the people in charge of the centre came up to give me 2 packets of the delicious and heavenly oreos omg hahahaha :))))) I thought it would be quite a good day that day despite my blur-ness but some people just had to ruin it all and I was so pissed off cos they were ordering me around and they didn't even bother with a simple "thank you" or "please". I was so pissed off with them that I swear it was all I could do to control myself and not lash out at them cos I was so close to doing that. I was trying really hard before to actually start accepting them, but they gave me a whole lot more reasons to dislike (hate) them.  And, I almost showed them the side of me no one has seen in a few years. The side which I forced down, back inside of me. The one that I'm fighting from resurfacing once again. Don't let that happen guys. I'm losing grip and trust me when I say you don't wanna see or mess with that side of me.

Wednesday
4.15 day and I nearly died cos the lessons that day were just pure torture and it was really long and the lessons that day were all just really boring. I have no idea how I survived but I'm proud to say that I made it through yet another 4.15 day. It was kind of depressing though cos Michelle wanted to ask me to go Starbucks with her on that day to study since she ends school at 1.45 but I couldn't go cos I end at 4.15. My life sucks ): Been there, done that, and still doing that.

I didn't really do much on thursday so I shall just skip that and I move on to today!

Friday (Today)
I reached school at about 8.30 in the morning and I started to re-revise my Macbeth notes to prepare for the test though I gave up on revising it after a while cos I know that if I continue to look at the notes, I'll just be overly stressed out during the test and blank out. While revising, I was texting Angel cos it's this crazy girl's birthday today (happy 15th birthday Angel<3 though you most probably won't see this but it doesn't matter cos I already texted you in the morning :)) and she really made my day cos one of her texts made me burst out laughing randomly in class hahahaha and I would have puked my water out if I had been drinking at that time xD Then afterwards, we had math, then recess, then LA test and the first question was quite manageable though I think I screwed up the second question but I'm not sure. I'm seriously praying that I don't though, cos I need to do well in LA so badly. Anyway, after LA was 3 periods of chinese and then 1 period of chem which was totally pointless and boring ): After school, I met up with Karyn to have lunch with her since we both didn't have CCA and we went to Macs. I had a really good time talking to her and going home with her even if she's only with me for 2 stops on the train before she alights(: OH OH AND WE SAW THIS REALLY HOT AND SLEEK AND SEXY RED FERRARI WHEN WE WALKED OUT OF MACS AT THE TRAFFIC JUNCTION. IT WAS A BEAUTY I SWEAR OMG. I wanted to take a pic but my stupid phone was lagging (I'm changing it soon thank GOD) and the red light just had to turn green at that time ugh ): I'm not a huge fan of cars but that ferrari was just way too nice that I can't help but spazz over it hahaha. (Okay, I'm being weird and high. Ignore me :P)

So I'm here blogging now, but I have to get back to doing work soon and be really busy so till the next time I blog! (: I promise it'll be soon xx.

"If love indeed, tell me how much?"

You cut my wings and now I'm falling.

Hi guys(: I haven't blogged in quite a long time cos I just didn't have the motivation to blog (or do anything for that matter) and I finally found myself some motivation today so I'm just gonna do a brief update.

Monday
I can't really remember what happened on monday except that I had BSP after school and me, Karyn and Charlotte went to the canteen as per usual before BSP to slack and eat haha. Then during BSP, me, Karyn, Charlotte, Nat and Carol were eating every single time the teacher wasn't looking and I was tweeting in class since the class is just really really boring and that was the only way I felt that I'll survive LOL.

Tuesday
I had CCA afterschool so me and Cheryl went to have lunch at the canteen first while Kelly Gan and Hui Chyi went up for BSP. I decided to stop being so stupid and attend BSP twice a week (I've only ever did it a few times) and I went to the library with Cheryl to study. Then at about 3.20pm, I called Kelly Gan to meet her to go for CCA. When we reached the area near Peace Connect, we had to walk through this path and there was this really scary black cat in the middle of the path and it's back was facing us. Then all of a sudden, it just turned around and I had a shock, but Kelly Gan took her shock to a whole new level. She just practically screamed and started to run away and the teacher in charge of our CCA was just behind us and it was so freaking hilarious I swear HAHAHA. Then during CCA, I tutored the p4 boy I tutored last week again and I was trying really hard not to be angry with him because he just didn't want to focus and was trying really hard to get away from doing his work. But they're kids and I'm like that sometimes too so I kind of have no rights to be angry haha. Anyway, so after we finished the tutoring session, we went out to look at the kids play soccer though I wasn't really looking before we went home.

Wednesday
4.15pm day and I swear I almost died. We had Financial Literacy in LT3 and we had to pretend to buy stocks and it was really cool cos my group managed to buy the stocks that either increased or had no changes and we never once lost any money so we were really happy :P Then we had assembly in the hall that day and they had this encouragement talk (?) and they played videos with quite a few inspirational quotes and it got me thinking a lot about myself and everything that's happened/happening to me. After assembly, we had Math before we went for break and LA Lecture in the auditorium. During LA Lecture, the teachers played the Macbeth video and most of the scenes were like "kissing" scenes and almost the entire level was laughing and giggling away and I honestly just didn't find it that funny and I got kind of annoyed lol. After LA lecture, we had chem and it was terrible. It was just supposed to be a make up lesson since our really really really terrible teacher, LLH, is super slow and our lesson was supposed to end at 4.15pm but LLH decided that it would be really nice to keep us there for half an hour more so we ended at 4.45 pm instead. I was so freaking pissed off at him. Then we were supposed to have CCA at first but it got cancelled at the VERY LAST MINUTE and when I called the teacher to ask if there's CCA, she screamed at me cos she was trying to vent her anger on me. She was screaming at me (US) for being late for CCA like that's our fault cos it's obviously LLH's fault and she only informed us that there would be CCA on that day 1 hour before school started so that was obviously HER fault as well and I was so damn pissed off at them. But anyway, enough of the rants. So after that, me and Kelly Gan went home together and we went to buy some food on the way to Mountbatten MRT to release our anger and what was even better was that when I got home, my mum actually bought ice-cream :)))) What can I say? A girl needs her ice-cream to make her very very ruined day better ;)

Thursday (today)
We started off with Geog today and geog was as per usual. Then we ran all the way up to class for Chinese Test which was quite okay I guess. I'm just really praying that I get the A that I need so badly. After Chinese, we had to go down for Class Photo taking and we didn't even get to have our recess cos the photo taking session clashed with our recess so all of us just went to the canteen to get some food and we quickly gobbled them down before it was our turn to take class photo. I'm not sure how class photo turned out to be but I hope it turned out good and I can't wait to take a look at the photos. Afterwards, we had Bio and we had Bio essay test which I think I kind of screwed up cos I didn't know that I didn't have to write the function of the stomach so I practically spent most of my time writing that and I didn't have much time for the small intestine. I'm just really praying that I'll pass cos I really really have to. We had break after Bio then LA which replaced chem and then maths. I nearly died in LA cos my teacher was just going on and on and on about Act 1 Scene 7 of the Macbeth book which he has gone through like a thousand times and I have no idea why he keeps going through that scene but that's not the main point. The main part was when he said that he'll send me some things so that I can forward it to the class. Here's how the whole thing went:

LA Teacher: "Okay, so I'll send the model answers to L-Q."
Class: *laughs*
Me: "wtf?"
LA Teacher: "HAHAHA (I have no idea why he laughed cos it's not even funny but anyway) she's not LM (Lady Macbeth) she's LQ."
Class: *laughs madly*
And I was practically like CAN YOU NOT. OMG I CAN'T EVEN.

That was like the lamest joke ever and it wasn't even that funny. Like I said, I CAN'T EVEN.

Oh and I have Chem Test tomorrow and I haven't really started revising though I've already sort of revised the Acids and Alkali topic. It's gonna be some quite last min work but either way, I'm gonna try. (Some part of me has long given up on Chem anyway cos it's hopeless.) But whatever, wish me luck guys :)

And I saw this really cute Despicable Me gif on tumblr :) Here's a kiss from the minion to you :* Till then xx.

And I felt the butterflies once again.

The edge of glory.

Hi guys! (: Sorry for not blogging for the past few days though I said that I would. I was just really busy with my work and stuff like that, and I was feeling kind of lazy to blog and since I have some free time now after just returning home from TRP consultation, I decide that I should stop being lazy and start blogging so here goes :)

Monday
So it was youth day on that day and I stayed at home till around 12.45pm before I left my house and started to head to Serangoon MRT to meet the rest of my TRP group members (Jasmine, Kelly Gan, Cheryl, Hui Chyi and Nat) before we went to Nat's house to start preparing for the TRP Oral Presentation since the actual presentation is on friday. Oh and I swear Nat's like the best host ever. She gave us all packet milo, apple juice and she even got her helper to make nuggets for us :D I had a really great time there, and it was quite a productive meeting since we got quite a number of things done :)

Tuesday
We had E.Lit in the morning then PE and PE was actually really fun. There were these really cool boards by the side making the ISH look like a real floorball court. While we were playing floorball, something really funny happened. So each time we played, there were only 3 people allowed on the court, and the people that went out with me to play were Clarissa and Justin and we were playing against the other group that consisted of Cheryl, Xiao Xuan and Alyson (if I didn't remember wrongly) and while we were playing, the ball was headed towards Justin and he wanted to use his leg to stop the ball. GUESS WHAT HAPPENED NEXT?! When Justin stopped the ball, the ball got flattened immediately and there was a really deep dent in the ball and the next thing you know, everyone was laughing their ass off HAHAHAHA. (I'm laughing even as I write this.) That was like the most classic moment ever. Then after school, me and Kelly Gan went for BSP when I didn't even need to go, so I wasn't really paying attention in class and I was tweeting and then Carol whatsapp-ed me and I had a really funny convo with her. Then I had CCA after that, and I tutored this P4 guy who reminds me of my younger bro LOL. I had a really good day that day overall :)

Wednesday
It was a surprisingly good day since it's a 4.15 day and I thought I would die of exhaustion but I SURVIVED HAHA. So, I started the day with E.Lit then we had geog. I can honestly say that geog this year (though there's more things to do for the tests and stuff) is much more fun than the past 2 years cos maybe my teachers for the past 2 years were just really boring and I fall asleep every single time in class. I'm proud to say that I seldom sleep in geog class now so yay :) OH OH and, I got back my geog quiz results and I WAS SO HAPPY I SWEAR COS I GOT FULL MARKS HAHAHA :D I've never ever gotten full marks for geog before and that came as such a pleasant surprise :))) Then afterwards was maths and assembly where I had loads of fun. Me, Charissa, Kelly Gan and Jamie were laughing like mad during assembly cos Jamie thought that Girl X looked like a cartoon character and she said Snoopy but we didn't agree and the more I looked at Girl X, the more I felt that she looked like Eeyore and everyone started laughing like mad cos Girl X looks exactly like Eeyore HAHAHAHA. I can never look at Girl X or Eeyore the same way ever again OMG. Then after break, we had chinese where our class got reprimanded by Jin lao shi cos we didn't tell her earlier that we wanted to change date for our class's ting xie... Then we had LA afterwards, and I got so pissed off by my new LA teacher cos I'm the LA rep and I'm supposed to help him collate the groupings for the LA Macbeth role play but he made the instructions so unclear that I was so confused, and the class wasn't helping at all and it was just oh so chaotic that I got really annoyed. And when all the chaos was over and we got back to lesson proper, he just started to go on and on about the same things in class and I was so bored I think I almost slept. I want Ms Syikin back ): But anyway, after LA was ACE and ACE was kind of interesting cos we did some random quizzes and I got to learn a lot of new things and we ended ACE with a really funny video HAHA. Here's the link! Some of you guys may have watched it already :))
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EzUjghLO3qc

Then after that I went home with Shi Kai :) I was supposed to go home wtih Karyn as well but then Hui Yuen wanted to stay back with her in the library to study and talk, so me and Shi Kai left first.

Thursday (today)
Woke up at 6am today though I didn't have to cos my TRP consultation only starts at 9am, but I met up with Karyn to have breakfast with her at Macs and it was really worth waking up so early :) Then after we finished eating at Macs, me and Karyn walked to school together where I met Nat so me and Nat went up to class first, while Karyn went with her other classmate. We started to rehearse one more time before our consultation and consultation was just really boring cos our actual mentor isn't around and we had some random stand in mentor come in to help us. I'm just really hoping that we'll be able to do well tmr :) So anyway, after our consultation ended, we went to the library to edit some things for our TRP Oral Presentation tomorrow before me, Cheryl, Jasmine and Kelly Gan went to find Kelly Ng to go for lunch together. We met Charissa on the way. We were deciding between Macs and school canteen and we couldn't decide so we wanted to throw a coin to make our decision (how silly is that haha), and just as we were about to throw, Cheryl dropped the coin and heads was pointing up which means we're going Macs haha. Jasmine didn't want to leave the school so she went to the canteen on her own while the rest of us went Macs. As we were walking there, it started to rain really heavily so I had to share umbrella with the Kellies (Kelly Gan being the burden HAHAHA) while Charissa and Cheryl were enjoying themselves in front without having to share umbrella with a burden xD (nah, Kelly Gan if you ever read this, I'm just kidding :)) ) Then while we were at Macs, everyone bought meal while I only ate ice-cream cos I already ate Macs for breakfast that morning and I was going to have lunch with Shi Kai afterwards. While we were eating at lunch, we started to talk about the really embarassing things that happened to us before as well as what happened to the people sleeping in our tent during OBS and they are all so funny, I almost died from laughing too much. I had a really good time with them. Then, afterwards, Nat and Jing Ying walked past us and my back was facing them so I didn't see them. Nat poked me and I had a shock so I kind of screamed and it was just too funny cos I seldom do that HAHAHA. After we finished eating, I met Shi Kai at Macs and we headed to Junction 8 to have lunch together and we ate at Mos Burger before we headed home :) And I just successfully edited the video we're gonna be playing tomorrow during the Oral Presentation so I'm feeling really accomplished and proud of myself, and I'm gonna reward myself with food later hahaha (though there's probally nothing much to be proud of :P) I had a really good time today overall :))))

Oh and did I mention that my class got our class tee yesterday? It's actually quite nice cos the material is really comfortable though the colour of the shirt makes me look like a walking highlighter when I wear it :/ I must admit that it's one of the nicest school based tees I have though my favourite is still the 2Innae Interclass tee cos I love that class and I'm biased towards it. Oh well \o/

PS. Special Mentions to the people who gave me my brithday present (belated) in the past week :))) (sorry that it's a bit late guys!! And it's in chronological order LOL)

Thank you Angel for the really cute doggy soft toy and key chain <3 (though it's furry and pink hahaha) :D
Thank you Shi Kai for the really pretty pink-galaxy tumbler and the FOOD <3 :D
And thank you Angeline for the really nice tote bag, keychain and the JELLYBEANS <3 :D

Love you guys all so much<3 (:

I was too lazy to take pics of the presents so there shall be none haha.

Anyway, wish me luck for tomorrow's TRP Oral Presentation :) And I shall blog the next time I have some motivation, so till then xx :)

Give a little time to me, or burn this out.

We'll play hide and seek, to turn this around.

Life's a hangover.

Hi guys(: I haven't updated for quite some time so I shall do a brief update now.

School started yesterday and I'm still in the holiday mood. First day of school, and I had BSP so I had to stay back till about 5.15pm (not including the teacher delaying ): ) so by the time I reached home, it was already 7pm. I was craving for fries halfway through class (HAHA DONT ASK ME WHY) and I really wanted to go get some with Charlotte and Karyn after BSP but decided against it cos it was quite late already and I had to go home soon (nah, it's the fats I'm running from hahaha but shh.) Then there was LA and we changed teacher and I really wanna have Ms Syikin back cos the new teacher is really boring ): And I'm the LA rep, imagine the horror I felt ): But, Kelly, Karyn, Charlotte and Hui Yuen really made my day cos they gave me a birthday present (a really nice T-Shirt and a owl keychain which can be seen hanging from my school bag now) :))) And they told me that they were going to give me individually later as well :) I just mega love them luh haha <3

Today was quite a short day cos we ended at 1.45pm. We had PE and we played floorball which was kinda fun but boring at the same time. Fun cos I liked standing by the side being the wall and not doing anything. Boring cos maybe I'm playing with 3D and nothing with 3D seems to be considered fun at all but oh well lol. Anyway, we had Math then Bio afterwards and our teacher changed to Ms Sherene for Term 3 cos Mrs Lim will be away for course. Oh and according to Ms Sherene, we'll be dissecting a heart some time later and I almost vomitted cos the thought of the smell and the amount of blood I'll be seeing just makes me feel so grossed out but I'm not gonna back out from it cos it's kind of a once in a lifetime kind of thing and YOLO so :) (just remind me not to eat before I do it cos I might puke like seriously ugh) Then afterschool, I met up with Angel and we had lunch together. Haven't hung out with this girl for ages and it felt really good catching up with her again :) I had loads of fun with her just talking with her and going home with her cos she's too funny for her own good and she always makes my day like the rest of the girls do :))) I really really miss 2Innae and all the Innaeians and I wish I can go back to being in 2Innae so badly D:

So overall these 2 days have been quite a good 2 days but then again, school has only started for 2 days and it'll only become busier and busier over the next few weeks. Which means that I might not have as much time to blog though I'll try my best cos I really enjoy blogging. (On another note, I update my private blog so much more often than this so oops hahahahaha.)

Anyway, till the next time I blog xx :)

Breathe. You're alive for a reason.

Love. That's what your heart beats for.

Dream. You're born to do that.

Smile. You're stronger than you think you are.

Ps. Seeing you turn away from me almost killed me. I miss and I need you...